I am what I am because of you

2006-03-30T00:25:00.000-08:00

my love.

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2006-02-28T09:17:00.000-08:00

its time to end this chapter of my life and move on.
byebye everyone :)

2006-01-20T21:05:00.000-08:00

its been a long time since i did proper blogging. :)

anyway,ive this very bad feeling about my a level results.
like super super bad.

in the dream i got B2 for GP ( i dont know wads B2)
C5 for maths.
E8 ( for econs which i dont take)
and ermm..i think thats all i dreamt about in my dream.

zzz.but i think i will do damn badly.
i reallllllllllllllllllllllllly regret not studyinggg as hard as i did for Olevels.
all i thought of was leave AC asap and club and club and club and club.

nowww, ive alllllllllllllllll the time in the world to club.and i miss AC cos i wanna studddddyyyy. (but i dont wan to retain. *touchwood)

and i have the sudden urge to do projects.crazy me.

butttttttttttttttttttt......im soooooooooooo scared of my alevel results.
just the thought of it is tormentingg me like crazy.. :(

2006-01-13T21:06:00.000-08:00

howwwww nice.

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2006-01-13T21:02:00.000-08:00

friendship i will treasure for life.

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2006-01-13T21:01:00.000-08:00

me and retard.

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2006-01-13T20:59:00.002-08:00

art of friendship

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2006-01-13T20:59:00.001-08:00

first kiss.

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2006-01-13T20:59:00.000-08:00

preparation before ourrrrr....

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2006-01-13T20:58:00.000-08:00

acting stupid

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2006-01-13T20:57:00.002-08:00

haha. im too light

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2006-01-13T20:57:00.001-08:00

n shes too heavy

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2006-01-13T20:57:00.000-08:00

still still workingg

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2006-01-13T20:55:00.000-08:00

while working

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2006-01-07T09:48:00.000-08:00

i dont like wrappp skirtss

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2006-01-07T09:47:00.003-08:00

so cute hor!

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2006-01-07T09:47:00.002-08:00

close shop :)

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2006-01-07T09:47:00.001-08:00

n i love thisss skirt!

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2006-01-07T09:47:00.000-08:00

loveeeeeeee.

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2006-01-07T09:40:00.000-08:00

me and eileen jiejie!

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2006-01-07T09:38:00.001-08:00

hulanco!

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2006-01-07T09:38:00.000-08:00

we love OTs!

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2006-01-07T09:36:00.000-08:00

after workkkk

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2006-01-01T02:19:00.000-08:00

i clubbed three times this week.and so.my feet is suffering from ugly blisters.

went to cheekys on ladies night and it was DAMN GOOD.almost smoked but didnt cos rina and amrit took my cigar away. wanna try the feeling of a social smoker.

went to cheekys again for countdoowwwn with rina yuting minghui candy and yuting bf.
hahaha.damn damn fun!but totally surrounded by very sweaty malays and indians.zzz.still damn fun though!

but wed was better.

aiya.dont noe wad to say alrrrrr.
alright! have a nice first jan!

todays a good beginning cos i slept till 5! haha!

2006-01-01T01:41:00.000-08:00

when my shoe broke at a wrong time

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2006-01-01T01:40:00.001-08:00

shes soo nice! she came to my food stall and pass me sweet! i love jie ke!

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2006-01-01T01:40:00.000-08:00

i love her!

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2006-01-01T01:39:00.002-08:00

mrt!

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2006-01-01T01:39:00.001-08:00

outside hulllaaaa

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2006-01-01T01:39:00.000-08:00

muack muack

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2006-01-01T01:38:00.000-08:00

eileen jieke me!

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2006-01-01T01:36:00.002-08:00

she damn cute hro

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2006-01-01T01:36:00.001-08:00

we had a bohemian theme. :)

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2006-01-01T01:36:00.000-08:00

im so uglyy when they asked me to work at the food stall!

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2006-01-01T01:35:00.001-08:00

jieke sally me!

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2006-01-01T01:35:00.000-08:00

the god of hulanco.

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2005-12-24T09:26:00.001-08:00

a better one

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2005-12-24T09:26:00.000-08:00

threesomeee.

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2005-12-24T09:23:00.001-08:00

terrorism

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2005-12-24T09:23:00.000-08:00

benjamin is sooo happy leh!

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2005-12-24T09:22:00.000-08:00

i dont have disease ok xavier ho!

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2005-12-24T09:21:00.000-08:00

they pushed me to him!

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2005-12-24T09:20:00.001-08:00

look! jeremiah is so happy!

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2005-12-24T09:20:00.000-08:00

nice happy family :)

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2005-12-24T09:18:00.001-08:00

everyone loves me.except for heidi

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2005-12-24T09:18:00.000-08:00

they will never grow up.see how irritating heidis face is.feel like beating her right? hahahahahha.sorry heidi

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2005-12-24T09:16:00.000-08:00

and this is wad they do to me

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2005-12-24T09:14:00.001-08:00

this is wad they do to us

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2005-12-24T09:14:00.000-08:00

three best ladies in my life.excluding heidi

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2005-12-24T09:12:00.000-08:00

me and ben

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2005-12-24T09:10:00.000-08:00

me and zhen.like long time ago.

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2005-12-24T06:47:00.001-08:00

i said i loved her.

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2005-12-24T06:47:00.000-08:00

and she loves me too

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2005-12-24T06:46:00.000-08:00

S.M.I.L.E cos we are the hula girls!

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2005-12-23T22:18:00.002-08:00

and agaim

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2005-12-23T22:18:00.001-08:00

again.

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2005-12-23T22:18:00.000-08:00

haha.me and her again.

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2005-12-23T22:17:00.001-08:00

jackee me sally. hula n coooo

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2005-12-23T22:17:00.000-08:00

I love jie ke! shesss so niceee

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2005-12-23T22:16:00.000-08:00

me n sallyyyy. hula n co.

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2005-12-23T22:08:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL

haven been updating much.just came back from china and working.

anyway.went to zouk and phuture yesterday aft work.

and saw xavier.haha.he did danced.

and we went home together.haha.and i forced him to send me home first.

oh.i went to cheekys first before going to zouk.

cos that stupid xavier and alv kept asking me to go.

ok.so i went.

xav and alv confirmed with me that they were playing R&B and hip hop.

so i happily went.

in the end. they were playing i-dont-know-what music.

and it was to freaking squeezy to dance anyway.

u only had u own standing space.

so.xavier wasted my $15 for cheekys cover charge.and my $28 for zouk and phuture cover charge.

plus my cab fare.

hes such an asshole.

but i still love him very much.

cos hes my friend for 6 years.

and its also heidis fault cos she asked me to msg xavier cos hes going to zouk.

i hate heidi.

cos she always give me trouble.

hai.

heidi-never ending troubles.

sorry for all the broken sentences.lazy to write.

hurhur.

2005-12-11T03:11:00.000-08:00

ve been really busy this whole week.working. tiring. but fun. and i love my colleagues.

absolutely in love with my boss.so H.O.T and damn nice. NUS yr 2.
but attached.hurhur.

anyway.did i mention that im working at Hula & Co.
i think they should sponsor me and i can be their model. :)

was decorating the pretty christmas tree.my FIRST christmas tree alright.
not mine though. :)

going to shanghai on tues. it will be a cold HOLIDAY !
hope its fun.

ok.people take care while im away .esp my dearest nonee. lai love love .
good luck for ur job hunting anyway and sorry i cant club this week.

went for retail therapy yesterday and it was GOOD.i bought most of my stuff from hula cos they had new stocks and i bought .erm. a bag. a top. 2 skirts. and 2 pair of shoes from other shops.

yay! alright.shall go rest again :) tata people!

2005-12-04T00:17:00.000-08:00

MY ER JIE HAS A BOYFRIEND ! ! !

and im so sad cos she wouldnt want me anymore :(

MY ER JIE HAS A BOYFRIEND.

2005-12-03T08:49:00.000-08:00

im starting work on monday.and im dreading it.
the only consolation is that i can shop w/o feeling the pain.

ive a damn importance announcement to make tomorrow :)

2005-12-01T00:20:00.000-08:00

no love nee

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2005-12-01T00:19:00.000-08:00

the bride and groom.

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2005-12-01T00:18:00.000-08:00

i curled my hair :)

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2005-12-01T00:17:00.000-08:00

lovers.

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2005-12-01T00:16:00.000-08:00

i can see far !

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2005-12-01T00:15:00.001-08:00

bigbig eyes.

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2005-12-01T00:15:00.000-08:00

big butt.hahha

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2005-12-01T00:14:00.000-08:00

im the strongest

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2005-12-01T00:13:00.001-08:00

me want to be pretty bride.

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2005-12-01T00:13:00.000-08:00

safe rescue.so cute hor.

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2005-12-01T00:11:00.000-08:00

shes so disgusting!!!

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2005-12-01T00:10:00.001-08:00

pretty place.

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2005-12-01T00:10:00.000-08:00

evidence that she loves herself.

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2005-12-01T00:09:00.000-08:00

say hi to merlion !

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2005-12-01T00:08:00.000-08:00

mezzzy quimas:)

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2005-12-01T00:07:00.001-08:00

crazy us

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2005-12-01T00:07:00.000-08:00

I LOVE MYSELF :)

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2005-12-01T00:06:00.000-08:00

we love ourselves.

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2005-12-01T00:04:00.001-08:00

lai love..

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2005-12-01T00:04:00.000-08:00

ugly.

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2005-12-01T00:03:00.000-08:00

beach train !

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2005-11-30T23:45:00.000-08:00

our happy times

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2005-11-30T22:09:00.000-08:00

IM BACK FROM MY HONEYMOON.

i have alot of complaints to make about her.(nonee)

shes very childish.she always rolls on my bed.roll here roll there.
she doesnt allow me to sleep
she doesnt allow me to watch tv.
she doesnt allow me to eat when im like freaking hungry at night!
she forces me to eat when ive already brushed my teeth and then cursed me that i will get tooth decay
shes very untidy.and throws her stuff around
shes like huang lian po.always doing these doing that
she likes to walk about when im watching my TV.
she has absolutely no direction sense and depends on me entirely.
she throws the hanger around hoping that i will pick it up for her.
she doesnt boil the water and i have no water to drink
she leaves her RUFFLES at the resort and nvr throw it away
she leaves all the plastic bags and boxes from her dinner around.hoping that ants will come and drag the whole thing away.

Ya.thats about it.nevertheless.i still love her so much and i enjoyed my honeymoon very very much!lai love yi ge :)

i was damn pissed yesterday cos we went to club.and guess wad.i got bounced like FREAKING 3 TIMES OK! max alr! nvr been bounced so many times a day in my entire life.and its not because im underage!but cos i nvr bring my IC! all the pigholes club and i really have no fate with chinablack.but im going this sat! u better let me in this time! grrrr.

SO, in the end.we went back to cheekys.they finally changed their songs and it was a fun night aft all.especially with JACK DANIELS AND MARTINEE (hidden meanings) . hot hot hot beyond words.ESPECIALLY JACK DANIELS. lian tie lian.tou tie tou.wahahhahahhahah...i love JACK DANIELS. G.O.O.D :) haha.jk. this is just to make nonee angry cos she says shes IN LOVE with JACK DANIELS.

btw,from now on, i shall be called Jill.cos JACK AND JILL RUN DOWN THE HILL.wahaha.and JACK AND JILL POTATO CHIPS...

hahahha.ok.sorry nonee.i dont like JACK DANIELS.hahah.i ADORE HIM :)

nananannana~ alright .i shall go rest now.had vigourous exercise ytd. :)

2005-11-27T07:45:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CANDY :)

bubbye ppl.im going for my well deserved holidays!

2005-11-25T20:05:00.000-08:00

cant wait.
im going to Sijori Resort at Sentosa with my darling nonee on MONDAY.

Yes.Us alone only.haha.we are going to have many many lesbianic(if theres such a word) plays and acts and everything.

for eg.we are gonna join our single beds together.and im gonna snatch the blanket from her at night and shes going to kick me down the bed at night.

we are going to emo with each other every night face to face.

we are going to save a lot of handphone bills.

shes gonna wake up damn early every morning (cos she doesnt noe how to enjoy her sleeping life) while im still sleeping in my bed.and she will stroke my hair while reading her book.

we will watch TONG XIN YUAN together in the hotel room while munching our onion rings away.

we will go kayaking together and shes going to hug me if i accidentally fall into the water.

and we will go suntaning together (me with thick layers of sunblock) and biioo handsome hot bods guy.(she very buaya one)

we are going to club and return to our hotel rooms damn tired and stinky and we will argue with each other to see who bathe first.

4 days 3 nights.and i hope we will do nothing wrong

shes going to love me soooo much! LAI LOVE LAI. :)

butttttt.......she says shes gonna have sex with hot guys in the bathtub(cos she likes constricted place) and she ask me to use ear plug or cotton wool.

so sad horrr...?

2005-11-25T06:50:00.000-08:00

if i can say 2 words to you.
you know what i would say to you ?

FUCK YOU.
i can easily come up with 10 reasons to justify why you deserve that shit

1 you are so FUCKING PROUD
2 stop FUCKING BUAYA when u have NO STANDARDS.PLS.
3 nothing GOOD comes out of your FUCKING mouth
4 u are a FUCKING useless guy.
5 such a FUCKING loser.who depends on mummy and daddy.
6 such a FUCKING mummy's boy
7 a GUY with FUCKING no dignity and backbone.
8 worst still.FUCKING cheapskate
9 FUCKING ungentlemanly.
10 comes up with FUCKING lots of excuses when u dont wanna do something.just proves that u are a FUCKING loser.

i wish i could say who the person is.so i can HUMILIATE u . u FUCKING guy.
hes someone ppl think im close too.but FUCKING hell no.
you know whos this guy ? someone who was in the same sch as me.and the hint is alr there.

F.U.C.K. Y.O.U. :)

i saw a senior yesterday at cheekys.and he said something which i totally agree with BOTH HANDS UP.he commented on our cl***'s g***s and he say they are damn screwed up!!

wahahha.ok.i agree.

2005-11-25T02:59:00.000-08:00

Chinablack dont open on thurs????

or was it a private party yesterday held by cannot-make-it ah bengs and ah lians.
how come chinablack was sooooo surrounded by secondary-school-look-alike ahbengs and ah lians???

ok.so in the end we went back to Cheekys.but somehow,IT WAS FREAKING CROWDED yesterday and there were more chinese.i think those chinese somehow spoil the sleaziness of Cheekys. they were sooo not taking initiative and stuff.I told Nonee that chinese in Cheekys are not good and she doesnt believe.SEE. im not being racist eh.cos im A TRUE BLUE CHINESE as well.hurhur.still 90% of the ppl there were caucasians and indians and malays and it was quite fun.except that it was TOO CROWDED.so crowded for the first time.

and they all started dancing even before i reached the club which is the first time.normally they dont dance until like wad..near 12? so i started dancing from 10 - 3 ! like nonstop except for short drinking breaks. i was sweating like no one's business and i was really really dripping wet.my undergarments were like soaking wet and stank like shit.
i took photo of how i looked like aft clubbing last night. and it really looked as if i just came out from shower. but my stupid phone just wont let me send the photos to my comp.ass.

alright.still it was quite fun!gonna club next weddd probably at rouge or chinablack.anyone wans to goooo ? candy candy? niza niza ?

2005-11-22T20:59:00.000-08:00

LAST PAPER TOMORROWWWWWW!

TIME TO CELEBRATE & PARTY !

CLUBBIN' AT CHINABLACK *grins from ear to ear*

2005-11-21T07:26:00.000-08:00

we went to job hunting today and it was pretty disappointing.those shops that have the big big sign "Sales assistant wanted" were just pulling our leg.
all they did was just to ask us to leave down our names and contact numbers.so since it was such an easy task i practically left my names all over the place.hurhur

the idea of working in Topshop Zara or some other famous leading boutique is indeed tempting cause you get good staff discount and you get more highly paid.but then on hindsight. what do you actually learn from being such a slacker and gloat over the fact that you do not have to work so hard to get highly paid.

all my life , i neednt have to worry about money. i dont drive big cars nor do i live in big houses.but i have these extra money to spend it on stuff that i like.whether is it necessary or not. and ive the money to spend it on entertainment and a more-than-comfortable lifestyle.

i was poor once.when i was in sec1-2 when my father lost all his money to stocks and we even have to resort to selling our house at one point of time.my father sold his mercz.i could still remember the car plate no. 9277. it was so well groomed by my father i knew he felt sad when he sold it.though i was still young.but i learnt the value of money.

lucky for me my family is no longer in debt and my father the kind soul generously help others who are in need while im the one who keeps complaining about helping or giving too much.
perphaps ive forgotten how ive suffered during the times when money was so important and probably ive taken money for granted. so i think its time for me to work and earn money so i know its importance once again.

so the my dilemma lies in.whether i should accept a low paid job like $4 per hour.6 days a week.about 10 hours each day in a not well known boutique "bus stop" that sells ladies streetwear.dealing with apparel is something i like so......

ya.or should i not?

oh btw. do you know tht theres this show "project runway" on channel five every monday.its like another apprentice but this time dealing with fashion designers.so cool! and i must say.their designs are damn good.i guess i will nvr ever come up with those designs.

haha.also i watched the 70s house on mtv. the competitors are supposed to be living as if they were living in the 70s.which means that their cd players.handphones everything modern gets consficated.worst.they have to wear the 70s clothes which is damn ugly and worse of the worst.haha.they are not allowed to talk as if they are in the 2000s.haha.so they cant mentioned anything like ... "you are awesome" or "botox.peels" otherwise they get eliminated.and the show is a MUST WATCH.damn damn funny.

almost laughed my head off.
ok.going to make fruit salad tomorrow.so im gonna sleep early.night ppl :)

2005-11-20T04:59:00.000-08:00

SPECIALLY TO NO NEE ON OUR VERY SPECIAL DAY

Happy 2 months anniversary.my girlfriend.gee :)

Today is our second month anniversary and im feeling so lucky to have you by my side for this two months.you were my pillar of strength and i love you so much.

erm.okay.im feeling so les.LAI LOVE LAI. :)

anyway.two more papers AND i will officially graduate from AC (if nothing bad happens)

and im going for job hunting tomorrow. all in all.im so happy today :)))

hm,my mom's going overseas again on tue.i hope she let me be rich again.

another cause to be happy !

oh ya.btw,im going to shanghai on the 8 of dec.and before booking the tix,i was actually looking forward to it.but after booking.im a lil reluctant to go. sian ji puah (nonee nonee)

but i promise my love,nonee.i will call you so that u dont miss me so much.and im sorry that you have to spend our third month anniversary alone.SO SORRY.

LAI LOVE LAI. :)

2005-11-18T20:59:00.000-08:00

i feel so lost.and ive so much to study.
i have so much to say.but yet nothing comes up.

all my thoughts are so random.and sometimes i wonder whats the purpose of letting everyone know how and what im feeling deep down inside.

Blogs have never been a private sphere.it has always been a public domain where any Tom Dick or Harry are able to view your blog without knowing you personally.

Its just so hard just trying to survive.or trying to be a human.its too trying and tiring.

How i wished i could turn back time.where im still some childish girl not knowing anything.
with no worries.no troubles.no nothing.

but.now im all grown-up. and the process of growing up entails with it all these problems.

sometimes i would just wish that u will not be so rational.having to give a reason for everything that you do.
i wish u will just be spontaneous and forgiving.
to forgive all the wrong things ive done.

i may not be perfect but neither are you.
you are emotional.so am I.
focus on what im good at.not what im bad at.
learn my good points.not my bad points.

stand in my shoes.and u will probably understand how i feel.
you dont want to give me time to explain.but i gave u when u needed.
this is my way of telling you.you say ive to write everything which im sad at in my blog.
because u didnt gave chance.

i dont know what kind of response you will elicit when u read this entry.
but i just wanna tell you im really sorry for what ive done.

i had a bad dream yesterday.and it was almost a nightmare....

2005-11-18T07:52:00.000-08:00

For Love or for Bread.

Which one is more important?Love or bread?

People of my age will probably choose the former.But im torn between the two.

or maybe u can say, i just dont trust in forever or eternity anymore.

and perphaps i have lost confidence in the male species.

dont get me wrong.im not misandry.im still very much in love with them.and i thank God that he placed the male species in the world.

But why didnt He made both species stay in harmony together for the longest possible time without any friction.If He didnt wanted to chaos in the world, why didnt He make human species all tamed and understanding and possessing all the favourable virtues that one could ever have.

I used to think that fairytales do in fact exist.that guys who are all tamed and understanding do exists.But now i dont.Probably if you asked me to choose between love or bread now. i will choose the latter.

Im not being materialistic.Im being practical.

Im not being old-fashioned.im just being realistic. especially in this ever transient world of ours where everything is driven by high-ended consumerism and money makes the world go round.

perphaps,money may not be able to buy everything in the world.but im sure love will not last any longer than a few months.maybe years.or maybe decades.maybe miracles do happen.But as long as it doesnt happen to me.im assuming that they dont exist.

Maybe I will feel the happiness and joy when im first in love.But they wear off.they sizzles .they become flat and eventually, you end up getting nowhere with love.

of course, i wanna feel in love.but at the same time.i dont wan be burdened by all the problems that comes with it.

When you opened a can of coke.its sizzles giving bubbles of carbon dioxide gas.leave it long enough and it turns flat and tasteless.

This is my analogy to relationships.

Im tired and im gonna sleep.night people.

2005-11-18T03:15:00.000-08:00

btw.have you people seen the new bhangra CD? BUY FOR ME! cos im learning bhangra after exam.damn cool right! haha.

buy for me otherwise friendship over :)

2005-11-18T02:54:00.000-08:00

chemistry MCQ was frigggging difficult.anyone who says that its easy in front of my face deserves a damn tight slap from me.like CRYSTAL PAN. and I HATE chemistry MCQ! its going to pull my overall grade down.grrrr.

btw.START dating me! my exam ends of the 24th of nov.which is coincidentally HEIDI HO HKWAI CHING'S bday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! see im the first to wish.

back to the topic! START dating me! pls ! to shop. to club . to job hunt. whatever. just not to the zoo.or anything under the sun.hurry hurry hurry!!

ok.ive a date on 24th with nono to club and shop and have a big feast.
ive a date with clarence wee.
ive a date with nick wai .

er.i think thats all.so im free! hurry up. pslpls!dont let me rot at home!! H.U.R.R.Y

two more papers and ill be a free bird.

2005-11-16T23:06:00.000-08:00

all pictures taken from www.abercrombie.com

2005-11-16T23:04:00.000-08:00

okay.last one!

im a photowhore